So this is it.
I really don't know how exactly to say this. But I have got myself in way to deep, I have lost who i was until moving into this house. Instead of thinking about all the positives in life, I now think about all the negatives. I sometimes think people are keeping things from me, or if someone was to say something to me i will not have anything to say but "Nice", "Sweet" or "Cool". I have tried so hard to make her love me that i forgot who i really am. This has got to be the worste feeling that anyone can go through.
I get thoughts in my head, that my friends all hate me and they all talk shit behind my back. And it really frustrates me cause i spend more time worrying about this shit that i don't live a happy life anymore, just not me. I will sit in the corner of the kitchen by myself, thinking about how shit is so fucked up now a days, how things are so much more difficult than they use to be.
I can not take to much more of this, depression, if you can call it that. I get down about the littlest things, It's like i don't care about anything, im not into anything anymore, all that i care about is her. I really only vividly remember the last 3 months, everything beyond that is blurry i don't remeber a large portion of my past anymore, cause i have changed so much as a person.
I get thoughts in my head, that my friends all hate me and they all talk shit behind my back. And it really frustrates me cause i spend more time worrying about this shit that i don't live a happy life anymore, just not me. I will sit in the corner of the kitchen by myself, thinking about how shit is so fucked up now a days, how things are so much more difficult than they use to be.
I can not take to much more of this, depression, if you can call it that. I get down about the littlest things, It's like i don't care about anything, im not into anything anymore, all that i care about is her. I really only vividly remember the last 3 months, everything beyond that is blurry i don't remeber a large portion of my past anymore, cause i have changed so much as a person.
posted by Adam Parkin at
2:37 PM
1 Comments:
Parky buddy, you shouldnt think so much it seams like it really hurting you mentaly and dont think down so much of your self.. like your a really good friend and your a amazing person. Cheer up buddy everything is okay, like your friends love you, Gill loves you, and your accualy going come where in the world if you know it or not, so just CHILL and have fun in life cause its too short to be depressed
Keep it real A Friend...
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