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I am definatly not one person to rant about something, but there is no other way that i am able to get this point to go onto the page. I really need to get away take a vacation find a way to get from here. Everything is so complicating, I cannot fully love someone with so many people in the way.

There is only 3 times a day when i get to be alone (me and her), when we wake up in the morning until about 2 in the afternoon, about 2 hours. Also i get about an hour of her time when we make supper, or do dishes after or before supper, and then people come over and chill till about 12 most nights sometimes there is people who spend the night.

It is so frustrating because i want to talk to her so much, i want to spend tons of time with her because she is always on my mind. But sometimes it is made so difficult, like for instance people would come over one night, she comes beside me and stays for about 3 minutes and i get upset because she wont spend time with me, but now i realize that it's not her fault. It's just because she is a "busy lady".

It is a super sketchy situation, i can't force her to tell all of her friends that they can't come over all the time, But damn every night oh wait except for "Tuesday" night when she watches her show. And for the last 2 weeks there was still people here all night.

Now dont get me wrong, these are all my friends too, and they all mean something to me, some more than others, but there is a point where it get's on my nerves when i see everyone, everyday. I appologize if i offend anyone by the way, but i really do love her, and i don't want to lose her, she means everything to me.